Only in a week until I teach my first public workshop! I’m really excited to do it and I feel much more confident this week than I did last week so that’s good progress.
I’ve come to realize that I no longer feel like I’m pretending to be an artist–I know I really am one now. That is huge for me! It’s kind of like when a person is in their 30s and older not feeling like they are a real adult. It is a matter of feeling it internally, NOT a true representation of what others think of the person.
I am an Artist and a Photographer and I don’t care what anyone thinks about it. I am an artist and I’m not afraid to say so.
I’ve struggled with feeling qualified or feeling I’m only pretending all of my life. I also have had difficulty in allowing myself to do things I really enjoy. I would say, in my head, “I think today would be good to paint [i love watercolor painting] so I need to do the dishes first.” After the dishes…”I need to write the 4 people to whom I owe letters or vacuum the floor or alphabetized my books and CDs…” or whatever crazy tasks I come up with before I can paint. You know the end of the story, right? I never get around to allowing myself to paint.
Now that’s just nuts!
But I am glad to say that I am not doing it any longer! If I want to draw, I draw–and I do want to…every day! In fact, my days feel incomplete if I haven’t tangled.
The name of my art practice is called HeART Tangles Studios, and here’s why: drawing using the Zentangle® Method takes the tangly mess of thoughts in my head, and more importantly, the tangled mess of emotions, feelings and thoughts, and memories in my heart. Drawing untangles my heart tangles!
Here is some recent art for your enjoyment and maybe for your inspiration! (Click to make larger if wanted)